By Bruce A. Smith
This essay is from my upcoming book, Becoming God-Realized – Stories from my Journey.
When the aliens left me in 1992, I, too, left them. For nearly thirty years I didn’t seek contact with the Extra-Terrestrials, nor did I hope they would come and visit. However, in 2019 I chose to revisit whatever truth inhabits this story, and the trigger was a call from the producers of RISK!, a Seattle-based podcast outfit seeking unusual sex stories. Since I was eager for a performance platform, I considered their offer. Giving the Risk! website a cursory look, it seemed that they specialized in stories celebrating the angst and excitement of young gay men coming out in the world. Not my cup of tea, exactly, but I sent them a transcript of my “Sex with Aliens.” They accepted the story and hired me to tell it on their show, and before a live audience in Seattle.
Subtly and internally, that impetus fueled a pull within me to investigate my abductions further, and I immersed myself deeply in the UFO mystery. But first I had to take stock of what had happened to me thirty years before. Here were my musings:
1. My story is real as told: One race of Extra-Terrestrials, the Grays, even though advanced enough to transport themselves to Earth, are apparently not sophisticated enough to genetically modify their own DNA to produce a more vital species. Hence, they’re having sex with guys like me.
2. My story is mythological. Perhaps I’ve tapped into Humanity’s Collective Unconscious and have created a modern tale of mythic proportions – like Noah and the Great Flood, or King Arthur and his magical sword. My story is a saga of how the aliens are endeavoring to reveal to us a grander truth about us, via our deepest dreams and memories. What that truth is, I don’t know, but perhaps it is a way of preparing us to be space voyagers and citizens of the stars. Regardless, storyteller Michael Meade has famously stated: “Myths can tell us a truth that cannot be told any other way.”
3. My subconscious is talking. My therapist may be correct and this story reflects my deep, unsatisfied longings. Perhaps I really do feel that romantic love is so unattainable that I have to go to Outer Space to find a girlfriend.
4. Government conspiracy. Perhaps the sex-with-aliens hybridization programs are just psi-ops conducted by rogue elements in government, and may be a scheme to stoke the current political turmoil regarding immigration, racial strife, and nationalism. Therefore, by going public it is possible that I’m kicking the hornet’s nest of these powerful forces.
The last scenario is a real dynamic for me. As I developed this story for the RISK! production, I felt terrified. Would the bastards really come for me now? One day, I wept on the phone with Jeff, telling him about my anxieties from my RISK! exposure.
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